Fighting for atmostphere

Pessimism is too costly.Worst case scenario projectingIs really never worth it.We are negative to our own perilDoubtful to our own destructionWe gain little from smallmindnessAnd victimhood earns us peanuts.Wake up!You are not obligatedTo that downward spiral. Why are you cast down, O my soul,    and why are you in turmoil within me?Hope in God; for I […]

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Here again

In deep need of mercyAching for graceFor Something bigger than meTo get me outside of meAnd help me see that my fearsDon’t actually blot out the sun.When earth’s darkest dayGives way to earth’s darkest nightThere will be OneWho will do more than merely gentrify the darkness.No.He has waded into our sadnessImmersed Himself in our filthHe […]

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More than yesterday

This journey with GodIs not a walk towardsIncreasing independenceAs though He were a teacherWho is expectant that one dayI’ll graduate to a lifeWithout need of Him.In HimThere is no coming of age,No handling of my businessApart from Him,No upgrade to self-sufficiencyTo a life embedded in the self-will.To walk with the FatherIs to know you are […]

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Rooting for you

I wish you well.Not a superficial wishThat you might haveA storm free lifeBut a soul-deep wholenessThat stubbornly holds true in timesOf affliction.And yes, you are afflicted,Your body has betrayed youYour mind is frazzledYour spirit forlorn-You’ve taken a beatingAnd its okay to say so.I am rooting for you,That you find a placeTo lay your burdens,And find […]

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The Applicant’s Prayer

Dear LORD, I never want to forget  That you are all-satisfying  And that You have my best interests At heart  Infinitely more than I do. I’ve made an application  Hedged my bets Taken a leap of faith  And now I find myself in limbo Waiting Hoping Day dreaming about how life would be  With a […]

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The wrong kinds of paradox

Freedom,As it turns out,Comes at a price.And justice cannotBe met peacefully.Righteousness remains unattainableWithout someone getting their hands dirty-The right kinds of paradoxWill always feel uncomfortable,A bitter drink with an aftertasteOf unadulterated nectar.What then, is this sanitized versionOf social progress that we areTrying to grasp at?Calls for ubuntu*By a diabolically individualistic society?An appeal for godlinessWithout God […]

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I’ve been looking for You

I get cravings throughout the day To glance at my phone: Hoping for a notification, Checking for messages; For reassurance that someone loves me For a reminder that my contributions matter For something to distract me. But when I think deeply enough I realize I am looking for something deeper, Something I have perceived from […]

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Thank you

Thank you Father That I do not need to live in comparison To others. What they drive How much they make How they look. What they get to do all day. Help me, Father to rather live in gratitude. For the millions of gifts you give That I can never repay. You have brought me […]

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Spinning wheels

Father Do you see me? Spinning wheels Looking for solutions Hungry to bounce back. I imagine my activity to be the difference Between success and failure. The strength of my legs enough to force open The doors. My fears keep me up at night. Assuring me the worst will happen Unless I run. And keep […]

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