How good must your fortunes beBefore you choose generosity?How much reassuranceBefore you behave like you belong?How much good will you overlookBefore you accept that ‘better is possible’?There’s nothing quite as difficultAs winning your own heart overAfter it gets jaded enough,Even when there is sufficient evidenceTo support a better narrative-Once you are convincedYou live in a […]
Read more "How good?"Having plenty of optionsBut no solid leadsBeing tasked to build a fortressWith no bricks to spareAm I at the endOr did I just begin?Flailing wildlyOr flapping my wings?Asking myselfIf I have thrown myselfInto the brier patchOr a bed of rosesWhen I took that leap of faith?
Read more "In Limbo"Have you ever seen hair Growing an egg? You won’t. Have you ever been on the edge Of some great adventure, On the cusp of a worthwhile, audacious project And then searched long and hard For the one reason Not to show up? You’ll probably find it. But the fact that you had to search […]
Read more "Hair on an Egg"Cost nothing as a kid.Naivete about the world allowsChildhood aspirations to bubbleEffortlessly to the surface,And at that ageTime seems infinite,Our very existence is teemingWith possibility.As a kid, unless something comesAnd breaks your spirit earlier than usual,Anything is possible.Now as an adultDreams are expensive.Irresponsible even.And at some point,Many of us make peaceWith them never bearing fruit.Life […]
Read more "Dreams"Are external landmarksOf the good things that have come to passAlong their path.What you see as you scroll on yourTimelineIs not evidence of your inadequacyNor indicators of where you‘Should’ be.Seeing someone else’s smooth sailingDoesn’t have to take the wind outOf your own sails.Other people’s achievementsHave nothing to do with you,With your combination of fear and […]
Read more "Other people’s achievements"Shaking my head. Passing judgement Casting stones Handing out shame. Freely. Levelling my gaze of disapproval, Of borderline disgust And disappointment At this person Who never seems to get it right Who regularly sinks to the level Of my low expectations Whose accomplishments are easy to overlook And whose faults are so glaringly obvious. I’ve […]
Read more "SMH"The problem with her problems Is that it was incredibly hard to gain perspective about them, To ration her level of concern appropriately And tune out the noise of her stomach-churning tendency Of vividly imagining the worst case scenario. Her flashes of panic could not distinguish Whether the pain in her head Was an innocent […]
Read more "Pebble in her shoe"Sometimes the edgesAre where we feel most comfortableThe unvarnished corners of the roomWhere its easy to hideEasy to get used to pretencePerformanceClaiming to be at peaceWhen we’re really just tired of fightingLike those drained out nightsWhen you pass out on the sofaKnowing you should get up and go to bedYet the painful akwardness ofBeing in […]
Read more "Comfortable?"It starts with a heightened awarenessOf your flaws.Your differenceHow no one seems to share your point of viewHow being transparent seems to not work in your favor,And so you turn inwards for answers,Introspecting,Manufacturing within yourself thingsYou think others would prefer to see about you,And then choose put that on display.And at first you put on […]
Read more "Performing arts"Are theirs. Not yours. They are not mandatory for you to internalise Or agree with Or even come to terms with. Some have made up their minds long ago About who you are Even though you are still on the way to becoming. Your past choices are a gift to your present self And it […]
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