On being sure you’re behind

The totem poleDoesn’t sum up all of human flourishing.It doesn’t account forYour private wins that no one else cares about,Your secret battles with sinAnd the hard won inner territories,The stutter you learned to stillAnd the healing of the wounded child inside of you,The effort you still make to not let your pastHold you backAnd the […]

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False Starts

Sometimes its not that you hadn’t preparedOr failed to count the cost,Its that you were too certainThat it would work,Too dismissive of the prospect of failure.Its not that you didn’t careIts that you hadn’t anticipatedThat your heart would move onThat your priorities would change.False startsAren’t indications of a fickle characterA weak willOr a deceptive intention,But […]

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Finish Lines

Are unpredictable.Even mystical.I have foundThat I rarely feelLike I thought I wouldWhenever I cross one.Its usually becauseThe next set of endeavorsLoom so largeThat they cast a long shadow on thisSuddenly unremarkable finish line,And I soon forgetHow many long nightsI spent in anticipation for this moment-This moment that has turnedSeverely anticlimactic andAlmost a definite disserviceTo the […]

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The Long Game

We are not in a rush.We have no points to prove,Just goals to achieve.We are not out hereTrying to appearLike we have ‘arrived’When the journey has reallyJust begun.We are not ashamedOf starting small.We will not dismiss ourselvesBecause we have been overlooked by others.We will not measure ourselvesBy the success of other people,We will celebrate every […]

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Perfect Paths

Sometimes, we tell ourselvesThat unless we findThe perfect pathThen its foolish to takeThe first step.And yet that is theMost foolish step to of all-The commitment to being noncommittalThe choice of not choosingThe decision to not decide;WaitingFor someone elseTo make your dreams come true.In case you were wondering –There are no perfect paths.No one gets them.No […]

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Non-binary

We are not living in the Matrix. There is no red pill or blue pill to choose from. There is no alternate reality where nothing goes wrong And all your choices lead to exactly where you want to go. Real life is non-binary There are often several paths to choose from But the outcomes are […]

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Not everything can be microwaved

How long can you sit with discomfort? Uncertainty? Imagine the absurdity of getting anxious That a seed you sowed a few days ago hasn’t sprouted Or that the baby born last November Isn’t paying her own taxes? Things take time. There’s no other way to say it. Hacks. Shortcuts and creative work arounds May get […]

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On to the next one

When I was still at high schoolI couldn’t wait to go to college.And when I got to collegeI found myself longing to graduate.And now, as a graduateThere are countless next steps to aim for,And always a sense thatSomething’s missing.Daily, the goal posts shiftEver so slightly.There’s always something else.Something beyond.The job I once dreamed ofIs now […]

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Rehearsing the future

Is impossible of course. There is no way of practicing what is yet to come. As we make plans for such an uncertain year It’s tempting to only feel confident When we have thought through and made plans for Every eventuality. But we’ve never actually known for certain what a day will bring, And much […]

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