Anxiety is not a seat-belt

It will not stop the freight train of lifeFrom chugging through your neighborhoodAnd taking you on a journeyYou may never quite understandExcept in retrospect..Most of reality will always remainOutside of your controlNo matter how hard you wish otherwise,And it might take you a whileTo accept this.Despite how strangely comfortingIt may feel to worry about the […]

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Wounded healers

Are the best ones.They have no tower to hide behind,No self-assured fluff to garnish their egoAnd very scarcely behave as thoughYour afflictions are greater than theirs ever were.Their wounds no longer oozeBut the scars are unmissable-Their hands may have been roughened by hardshipBut their hearts were somehow made softer.Their healing balm does not come fromClaiming […]

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The whining soul

Rushes to the conclusionThat God has abandoned itAnd that there legionsOf ill-meaning forcesAnd people in this worldWorking in concertTo make its life unbearable.The whining soulDoes not speak clearlyLest its complaint be metWith air and lightThat might exposeHow flimsy its grievances actual are.No-The whining soulInsists on mumbling in the shadowsWhere no real soundnessCan be found.

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Just another person

The regard of my neighborMeans too much to me.Its embarrassing that I care so much.I crave too deeply forA look of approval on their face,My heart yearns too muchFor the stranger passing me byTo show interest in my person-I hope they can see how complex I amThat I somehow stand outAmong the masses.These foolish hopes […]

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On self-harm

We are always just one decision awayFrom self-destruction.One bitter thought awayFrom sabotaging our relationships,One attitude of self-pity away fromMaking every moment about ourselves.Our propensity towards self-harmIs disturbingly persistent.Desiring the forbidden fruitAs though none of the others were good enough,Leaning into our depravityAs though it were in our best interests to do so.We need saving-Not just […]

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Fighting for atmostphere

Pessimism is too costly.Worst case scenario projectingIs really never worth it.We are negative to our own perilDoubtful to our own destructionWe gain little from smallmindnessAnd victimhood earns us peanuts.Wake up!You are not obligatedTo that downward spiral. Why are you cast down, O my soul,    and why are you in turmoil within me?Hope in God; for I […]

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The axe

There was a madman running around her mindWielding an axeScreaming expletivesMagnifying her flawsMinimizing her gainsThreatening to chop downEvery last good thing she’d ever loved.She knew the madman wellAnd she’d grown accustomedTo the gashes his axe would leave behind-Deep doubt of her reason for being hereA confidence that leaked too easilyA broken narrative.Nothing was sacredNothing was […]

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Soul chatter

More money will not make the voices stop.Neither will the arms of your biggest crushNor the applause of your greatest critic.The soul chatters incessantlyReminding you how unhappy you are going to beIf things don’t go your wayAnd how hard you need to workFor your ego’s upkeep.It takes a while before we realizeThat we are looking […]

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Go gently

Into the new week.Last Monday doesn’t have toCast a shadow on this one.The emotional baggageOf failed conversations.Poorly done tasks,And strained relationshipsCan take a steady tollOn your mental health,Melting the weeksInto a multi-episode dramaOf low-grade anxiety and fatigueThat coalesce to form aGrey and formless sludge.Go gently into the new week.Put away the boxing glovesAnd stop the […]

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You are not your thoughts

Its strangeBut its true.Not every feelingNot every thoughtIs who you really are.Or at least,Who you always have to be.Our mental landscapeIs in part given to usAnd in part made by us-The series of narrativesThat you have become so accustomed toAre not necessarily the whole of who you are.The scenes in your mindDon’t always have to […]

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