It’s possible that the people you work with really are the problem.
That the ‘system’ really is not in your favor
The color of your skin, your biology and your zip code are all putting you
At a disadvantage.
Basically, not a good fit.
But it’s also possible that your tendency to isolate yourself,
Your lack of consistency
Your need to constantly be revered or applauded
Tendency to hold grudges
Take things personally,
A visceral hate of being told what to do
Not to forget the gravity-like pull in us all towards self-centeredness.
That too, could be working against you.